Today, I saw a lady walking along our sidewalk with a cane. I watched her slow, careful steps, and the determined concentration was visible on her face.
Could I ever relate to that! I have a disability and I used to walk with a cane, also. Sometimes it was painful for me to walk, other times emotionally frustrating. I got so impatient with my slow, careful steps! And I STILL get impatient when I have to think about my every move!
Especially during these times, I have to be careful not to allow my focus to shift back onto things I could physically do when I was healthy. I loved to play racquetball and go hiking. I rode bicycle, and horses, and played with my niece in the park. I did power walking and aerobics for exercise.
These days, I can still exercise. I can work on stretches, but my aerobics are now spiritual rather than physical. My "step up's" are truly stepping UP - in a heavenly direction!
I can exercise with the assurance that someday I will be completely healed - whether I find that healing here on earth, or when I run to greet my Jesus in heaven.
Could I ever relate to that! I have a disability and I used to walk with a cane, also. Sometimes it was painful for me to walk, other times emotionally frustrating. I got so impatient with my slow, careful steps! And I STILL get impatient when I have to think about my every move!
Especially during these times, I have to be careful not to allow my focus to shift back onto things I could physically do when I was healthy. I loved to play racquetball and go hiking. I rode bicycle, and horses, and played with my niece in the park. I did power walking and aerobics for exercise.
These days, I can still exercise. I can work on stretches, but my aerobics are now spiritual rather than physical. My "step up's" are truly stepping UP - in a heavenly direction!
I can exercise with the assurance that someday I will be completely healed - whether I find that healing here on earth, or when I run to greet my Jesus in heaven.
"...the Lord Jesus Christ, who by the power that enables Him to bring everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like His glorious body."
Philippians 3:20,21
Thank you for sharing, Pandora. Reading this has made me realize how blessed I've been.
ReplyDeleteAfter 9 years of progressive loss of lower limb control after MS DX, I was sure I would end up in a wheel chair by middle age. And yet, except for fatigue, tinnitus and the dizzying Willy Wonkers (which have simply become familiar, constant companions), for the last ten+ years I have to remind myself that I do have MS.
Prayers that yours too will remit. It can happen. I also pray that we will some day figure how it does for some and not others.
Lately I find myself pondering the fact that my healthy 60 years old husband who prior to throat surgery in 2009 had only once in his life seen a doctor, (and that was for a fall which badly bruised his knee), is now in a wheel chair with total paralysis below his hips. Mysteries not meant to be understood, I guess, yet, some day......
All the very best, Gabi (Gabriella Stansberry, Dos Cabezas, AZ. Mutual friend: Kim March Force.)
Thanks for your prayers. My MS dx is Secondary Progressive after years of Relapsing/Remitting. Just today, I picked up a scrip for LDN--Low Dose Naltrexone. I had tried it...oh...about three years ago. It WAS helping...I could stand independently and take a few steps holding on to furniture. But I had an incredibly stressful situation crop up in my home for about three months. Stress was off the charts, and the MS exacerbated. Eventually I stopped taking it. But I'm going to try again! Google MS and LDN...I think you'll be surprised! :)
ReplyDeleteLove and prayers for both of you and your husband, Gabi. :)+
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